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Posted by nicoles on March 17th, 2003 filed in Uncategorized

I’m supposed to update my journal every so often… or something, so lets try that.

I put my computer into a new case, then added a drive or two, replaced the motherboard, processor, and ram, added some lighting, and i’m calling that my new computer. It is apparently faster than my old computer, though I have not noticed this much yet. I also don’t really care, as the whole thing was just to get a few new features and play with hardware, since I don’t have enough room for lego anymore.
It has a bunch of blue and ultraviolet light happening on the inside, which makes for a nice thing to look at when bored ^^

It will be fun when i get a new graphics card, cause then i’ll actually notice a difference in some things, like UT2 or whatever it is I just recently started playing so that I could play a game online with/against Kayla. Its fun ^_^. I also would like to cut a window into the case so that all that lighting stuff is visible without removing the panel. You would think the window comes before the lighting, but -I- go for the gold. ^^

Hooked back up my turntables and got some new vinyl, playing with that is loads of fun, especially considering how awful I am now ^^;;; I’ll just keep practicing ^^

I’m currently getting over a bit of a cold, and my mood recently seems to show it >< I’ve had this cold now for a whole week, and its just yesterday showing signs of slowing down. I’d like it to go away, cause its making it hard to taste things, and exercise is difficult.

Ripped a ton more of my cds, now I have more than I could ever possibly listen to on my hard drive. The challenge of course, is remembering whats what when I want to hear it.

Last night kind of sucked, a lot. I found out that someone I considered a very close, wasnt exactly being honest with me about the friendship, or something. I have nothing against this person, I don’t expect everyone to like me, but the worst part is that I heard this from a third party. Made me feel a bit of the fool, wondering if i am just that blind to see when someone isnt fond of me, or what, and also, confused to why someone would pretend to enjoy my company in the first place. Maybe I just don’t understand. It hurt alot though, I drove home in tears, but its just another thing popping up recently proving that I’m not very attached to this area any more. I mean, the bay area is beautiful and all, but I can’t say any of my absolute closest friends are here, and it seems like I’m getting farther and farther from the remaining friends I do have here. I’d really like to move more towards some of my closer friends, but that really doesn’t seem like an option right now, so I’ll just deal or something, at least for the time being. It is certaintly good to have Dan visiting for the next two weeks, and I plan on taking a bit of a trip to southern california to see David a few weeks later. I’d really like to live near or with Kayla… but thats not something I can do right now, though hopefully in a year or two I’ll be living with my love ^^

Whatever, thats a reasonably sized entry. off you go